Pressurecooker

"Procrastination paralysing me
Wanting me dead..."

I hate my inability to work without time-pressure. It started creeping up on me in 6th form and now, through the encouragement and example of pretty much everyone at Uni, it has morphed into its final form.
Whatever happened to the little girl in primary school who used to panic and crack under pressure, who used to have mental breakdowns and freak out? I even remember discussing it with mum, at the age of maybe 8 or 9. I said to her, "I don't work well under pressure, do I?"
Now... I don't know if it's because of the many other things around me to distract me from schoolwork, or the fact that I am no longer afraid of my mother catching me slacking off, or just the general sense of student apathy that permeates every aspect of University, but I am currently sitting at my laptop Toshie, staring at an essay question about Alice in Wonderland which I must write 1800 words on in the next 2 and a half days... of which there are really only about five hours of free time to write the thing. I know that if I was five straight hours out from the time that it's due, I'd be working frantically and productively and probably doing quite well. But because I have all those days inbetween now and then... I just can't do it...